The waiting game

I'm not quite sure why....but I know I'm waiting.

I've been waiting all my life in fact. I just didn't know it.

Waiting.

Even before I was born

I was waiting,

While I was a tiny fetus in the warm womb of my mother

Waiting.

Infant. Waiting...

and so it goes.

One continuous lifelong motion in wait.

The one major problem with living life in wait but not knowing it is filling all those agonizingly incessant quadrillion seconds while you wait.

well, I think we all know what happens to people when were bored and impatient.

Right?

Ya. We start to think of creative ways to fill the void.

we have an unlimited access with the 'all that is energy' when we were given free will. Kind of like a platinum credit card.

just write it off as free will!!! I'll deal with the consequences muuuch late tarrr!

And so it goes on. The waiting game.

I don't know what I'm waiting for but I sure do want to do it right.

Trying to figure out the rules of the game though

Mmmmmm. Tough call.

Especially from the perception of a child. You really don't know who's out maneuvering whom when your young...

so, the void has been tentively laid out with a plan by the time you hit your teens.

from a child's perspective...

the waiting becomes more conscious now though, as were pressured by our surroundings to conform to society's expectations of accomplishments.

the meaning of life also come into play.

A little bit of confusion there.

Now were searching and waiting.

Mmmmmm. Time to make a detour

Escaping from the wait in itself almost became my life's ambition.

So many ways to detour and zillions and zillions of seconds to help me fill that void of wait.

The game almost became suspended as I coasted into oblivion with my zillions of seconds.

I like to describe it as my years in an altered state of consciousness.

I had reached my 40's when I finally broke free from my mmmmm....

extended siesta. Just to find out the game of wait had marched right along beside me.

Waiting.

Patiently waiting. Waiting for me. Waiting all my life. maybe even many life times. Could even have been since the beginning of the formation of thought itself.

Wow! that must make me a very important person.

and I am. I am because I'm a part of you and you and you. My strength is in knowing that I'm a part of every thing our consciousness has to offer.

Now that is awe-inspiring. Magnificently powerful. With endless possibilities.

I won.