Amazing. 31 minutes of breathing threw the left nostril. My mind was not quiet though, in fact it accelerated in activity as soon as I started the meditation but!.. I stayed focused and completed the meditation.
The left nostril is associated with the Moon energy:
-Cooling & receptive.
-Apana, the cleansing energy
-Calmness & sensitivity
The ideal effect I'm looking for at this moment. Its the afternoon I just finished my weekly group I'm apart of relating to addiction & food, fasciculated by a psychiatrist who works only with food addiction although every other addiction plus other diagnoses comes along with it. Makes for a very interesting group of women. It also triggers me & usually when I leave I feel overwhelmed and vulnerable so...changing my behavior this time I'm going to sit down and begin left nostril breathing in till this feeling subsides, even though I really just want to dissociate with food and the TV or facebook.
Dissociate for me is a fluffy easy word that only mildly relates to the intense emotions I feel most of the time.
Stuffing them down with food, works!(for the moment) but has allot of unhealthy side affects
Meditating is challenging. Especially with this meditation.
I'm using music to ease the mind. Snatam Kaur with Guru Ganesha Singh- Ardas Bhayee.
Guru Amar Das, the positive mind.
Third body, Third Guru
'Devil or Divine' thats what it feels like to me
Day 2
I started this 31 minute Pranayama yesterday.
I have had a food disorder threw all of my adult life and most of my teen years and would probably be diagnosed as chronic because I'v been dealing with this addiction for so long.
'Chronic & hopelessly addicted to the binge-purge dis-ease of bulimia'
I don't believe this and never have, although finding a solution that works before the dis-ease kills me...well. this has been my education and learning experience from the time it began when I was 16 to this moment at the age of 48. Thats a long time to be abusing my body in this way.
I'm also Approx. 8 years clean from drugs.
I wanted to start this diary of with a bang so that if some one reads this you'll get right away how seriously soul draining my life has been. I am a seeker. Searching for the solution to set me free from self denial so I can embrace life embrace myself, embrace this physical body given to me by God.
This Sacred Temple containing my soul.
This is it for day 2
I wrote this in a recovery house 8 years ago
Addiction
The demon of the disease
Addiction
by the time the awareness is their the vice holds strong and tightens
Addiction
I'm at war with my fears
Dark shadows
One step behind me
I'm in the fight for my life for the flight of my spirit
God knows I'm trying
Over stimulated by my own anxiety
Where's the balance?
Sweet peace envelop me
Almost like death
Pranayama for Overeating
This is at best a painful subject, at worst a dangerous one. Compulsive overeating. You can't stop it, you can't help yourself, you just keep eating and eating. You ignore the pain in your stomach, the screech in your mind that says "What are you doing?!?!" and listen to the darker part of you that pushes you on. Maybe you only eat a little bit too much. You're intending to diet and instead of stopping when you're not hungry, you eat until you're full. Maybe you are fully consumed with an eating disorder, and you are haunted by thoughts of eating, anything and everything, and stuff yourself even more when you think sadly about what you're doing to yourself. Feelings of anger, hate, jealousy abound...you don't want to feel anything, so you replace it with feeling full. Maybe you're emotionally distraught from a fight with your loved ones. Maybe you've come home from school where the kids bully you and food is a comfort. Comfort, stress, emotions, sadness, self-hate...there are many reasons we overeat.
When your eating becomes uncontrollable and an instrument of violence against your own body, its time to take action. You deserve to be happy. You deserve to live a life of peace and joy. You deserve a healthy relationship to food and to your own body. And there is a pranayama, or breathing exercise, that can help you.
Yogi Bhajan, master of Kundalini Yoga, said that compulsive overeating had to do with an imbalance in the "self-depriving factors" in the brain's eastern hemisphere. He felt that it could be corrected by activating the left hemisphere of the brain to combat that impulse to overeat that is originating from the right hemisphere.
Pranayama for Overeating
At the time that you feel the urge to overeat, sit in Easy Pose. Block the right nostril with the right thumb. Inhale deeply through your left nostril and hold the breath in as much as you can. Then exhale through the left nostril smoothly and hold the breath out for the same amount of time you held it in. Continue for 31 minutes.
Yogi Bhajan said that 90 consecutive days of this pranayama for 31 minutes a day would be enough for most chronic cases. He also cautioned not to overemphasize the breathing. A nice, slow yogic deep breath is enough. You should not be putting pressure on the diaphragm.
Give yourself this gift. Fill yourself with prana, the energy of life that is in the breath, instead of food. The hardest part will be starting. You'll want to continue with your old patterns. But you can do this, you deserve to do it. You can fill yourself with light and love instead of food. It is possible.
(Editor's Note: If you feel uncomfortable meditating silently for so long, play some music that inspires you. It can help you time your meditations as well, especially if you pick a 31 minute Kundalini meditation track. Here are some musical suggestion to support you in your journey towards healing. Find something that really speaks to your heart. Just click on the image to get more information.)
Spirit voyage
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